我的生活，我的乐章

My Lazy Boyfriend

2007-10-04T02:43:31Z

Lao niang is super pissed off with those ignorant stupid people criticising about what the Boyfriend wrote for Yanyan.

My Chinese standard is not too bad but I'll never judge anyone's work if he/she can worte something like that, simply because I know very well that I am nowhere near there.

“在关公面前耍大刀” 听过吗？不自量力!

I asked Boyfriend to speak up for himself. He refused 'cos "it's pointless and troublesome to explain to those who obviously don't know and thinks that they know."

懒惰虫!

I don't like people to talk bad about him lah!!
*气愤地跺脚*

RRRRRRRROOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRR

So Cute

2007-08-20T04:24:31Z

Harry Potter

2007-07-23T17:20:04Z

Don't read if you haven't finish it!

I finished the 7th and last book of the Harry Potter series at 6pm today.
From then till now, I am still overwhelmed.
While I was shopping for food, while I was preparing dinner, while I was eating and while I was bathing, snippets of the story kept flashing through my mind followed by tears welling up.

It's so weird to have so many mixed feelings about a book or 7 books, if you ask me.
Don't get me wrong, I am very happy with the way Joanne Rowling ends it. There could be better ways, I don't know. But if she wants it this way, it shall be it.
However, I am sad at the same time. Sad to realize that this is the end. (I feel like crying, again.)

I've never cried so much over a story.

That how genius Rowling is.

We all know that 2 main characters are going to die. But the Harry Potter series and the entire wizarding world don't only make up of main characters.

The thing about Harry Potter is that every single thing counts.
Even Hedwig, the owl.
Believe it or not, she is my favorite character in the book. (Because of her, I visited the nocturnal birds gallery so often during my internship in the BirdPark to look at the snowy owls. Beautiful.)

Ever single character or creature in the book as its own very distinct characteristics. You'll just know who they are, important or not. And they are all very 'real', even in the fantasy world.

Logical in a non-logical world. Ironic as it may sound, it all made sense in HP.

I can't remember all the little details like Yanyan does. She is amazing, I tell you. Almost insane.
But here are the parts of the stories that went deep down inside.

1) When Harry tried to talk Hermoine and Ron out of embarking on the search of Horcruxes with him, they told him what they have already done in support of their friend.
Hermoine modified the memory of her parents. She changed their identities, made them think that it was their life ambition to live in Australia, where they, of course, went to, just so that they will be safe from Voldemort and his followers. And she made them forget that they have a daughter. *sobs*

2) Hedwig died.

3) Dobby died while saving Harry. Harry dug his grave manually with a spade(when he could have just used magic) to honour the house-elf. Harry, Ron and Dean dressed Dobby's body with their own clothings.

4)Colin Creevy died. He stayed back to fight even when he was underaged. He's one of Harry's most loyal supporter.

5) Severus Snape. (Rowling is a GENIUS)

(Ok, I want to cry already.)

6)Lupin and Tonks have a baby. They made Harry his godfather. Lupin and Tonks died in the battle.

7)Neville killed Nagini when Harry was dead. Harry told him to do it before he went to meet his death.

8)Harry named one of his children, Albus Severus Potter. Albus was worried that he would get into Slytherin. Harry told him, ""you were named for two headmasters of Hogwarts. One of them was a Slytherin and he was probably the bravest man I ever knew."

Book 7 wrapped up EVERYTHING. It linked up little tiny details from Book 1-6 which you might think they are unimportant then. It makes you go, "Oh oooohhh.."

Harry Potter was targeted at young boys.
I don't know if kids will relate it like I do.
We went through Harry Potter's life with him, from baby to adult.
Fiction it may be, but it felt like we share his burden and responsibilities of life, and we can relate to it. Even though his is more to the dramatic side.

During the period of darkness and despair, people are risking their lives to fight for the greater good. Greater good seems to be a rather vague thing, with no definite explanation. But in the story, it's like you can FEEL what it is really about: when Dudley shook Harry's hand, when Bill and Fleur got married, when Lupin and Tonks had their son, naming him after Tonk's father, and everybody drinking a toast congratulating Lupin, even when Draco nod at Ron and Harry on Platform 9 and 3/4...

就是那刻骨铭心的心路历程让读者们动容.从年少的童真与对未来的完美向往至被迫面对真实未来中的残酷与压力,虽然间中参杂着恐惧,迷惘,愤怒,甚至于死亡;但却是凸显了真正让人类生存下去的原动力:人与人之间的忠诚,爱,分享及贡献所带来的快乐与希望.

I don't know if I made sense.

Rowling deserves every single cent she makes from Harry Potter.

I think I'll go read it again. And then, I'll start from Book 1 through the very last page of the last book.

Abigail

2007-06-28T18:17:53Z

Sometimes I feel kinda embarrassed to blog.
'Cos I lead such a boring life.. and that nothing much is interesting enough for me to pen it down.
I hate those mundane blogs, remember?

The only worthy stuff (in my POV) nowadays is my beloved, cute, smart, cheeky, beautiful, darling ABIGAIL.

I don't want to sound like I'm obsessed with Abigail, by keep blogging about Abigail, saying nothing but how adorable Abigail is.
OH WAIT! Abigail just sneezed, I got to go and check whether Abigail is alright!

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I'm back.

Anyway, yes, this entry is about Abigail.

This is a classic.

Abigail has A LOT OF toys.

To date, she has 4 trunks of toys (do you know those huge plastic storage boxes?) , plus a cooking stove that's as tall as she is, plus a super market trolley, plus one battery-operated motorbike and one small car, plus a full size tent, and 1 locker-sized shelf full of books.

This is only at her own house.

I think she has 2 trunks at her gong gong's house, and a LEGO TABLE.

I'm not counting the soft toys at both places.

Okok, back to the classic.

There's this little puzzle that she always play with. She'll always start with the butterfly head
The thing is, she'll tell me that it's a BEE.
Whenever I correct her, she'll just say that it's a bee again and again and laugh.

(Her smile is a killer since she was a baby. Now she has an additional dimple. HOW TO NOT LIKE HER, YOU TELL ME?)

So...Zhengchang came over to play with her.
She took out the puzzle and I ask, "Enen, what is this?"
She replied, "Bee!"

=___=!!!

So I nudged Zhengchang to ask her the same question. Same thing, he asked, "Enen, what is this?"
Abigail said, "Butterfly!"

The Ah Yi a.k.a me went hysterics.
"I THOUGHT YOU SAID IT'S BEE? EVERY TIME AH YI ASKS YOU, YOU SAID IT'S A BEE! SO WHAT IS IT NOW?"

She WHISPERED NONCHALANTLY, "B for butterfly..."

Hen li hai.

I lose.

And it made me love her more. Haha.

If you haven't fall in love with her like I did, take a look at these:

Btw, it's the boyfriend in the last 2 pictures. I secretly thinks that he is in love with me partly 'cos of Abigail. Shhhhhhhhh...

I'm so not obsessed about Abigail. Really.

Ding Dong Siao

2007-05-31T04:44:25Z

Happy Vesak Day!

Very pointless, I know. Heh heh.

Abigail is getting cuter and cuter.

She learnt this sentence from us: "Why (insert name) like that?" (Jia lat liao. Singlish is being passed down to the next generation.)

Sometimes when you do (stupid) things which are suppose to make the average babies laugh, she suddenly pop the question. HAO XIAO!

That day, her mum was running and screaming 'cos there was a cockroach. I grab Abigail and sat in the room to wait for the pandemonium to be over, Abigail turned and ask, "A-yi, why Mama like that?"

Madam Mok! 你被自己的女儿笑！

Ok, bye bye, 谢谢, 再联络.

Update

2007-03-10T06:00:30Z

Hello peeps, long time no see.
Lots have happened since no idea went.
My uncle was hospitalised right before V-day. Thus, I missed celebrating V-day-cum-anniversary as well as CNY.
Luckily he's alright now..zhe bi shen me dou zhong yao.
So, I've been busy shuffling between the hospital and home, as well as to fetch my princess Abigial to and fro school.

Recently, I've been thinking about going back to school. Get a degree or something..
I laid my eyes on BA in Fashion Marketing and Management but it's so expensive and I have to obtain the Advance Diploma too.. Diploma again. =(
If the study plan is to happen..then I'll probably find a part time job at a reputable boutique to build up the resume.

Alright..got to go..ZC's going for choir practice and I'm going to the hospital.

xie xie da jia de guan xin, wo ai ni men!

Weili说："今天是SUNDAY!"

2006-12-03T04:25:35Z

Boyfriend is having exams, thus my life has been pretty mundane.
But CYY is back! We are going to have a slumber party. But could be just the 2 of us. Will probably ask her to scratch my back.

On a bo liao note, there's this nice fishball noodles stall at Bras Basah foodcourt with FREE FLOW LARD AND CHILLI AND CHOPPED GARLIC.

I've been getting alot of mosquito bites recently. TMD.

Anyway..back to my sewing orders. Slots are still available.

I miss Abbie. =(

Tailor

2006-11-27T04:26:45Z

Some people asked me about the dress I made for Yanyan.

I'm taking orders for that but I'll only make a maximum for 5 pieces.
(Pink is unavailable. That's only for Yanyan.)

Email me at bookofmusic@gmail.com or leave a comment if you are interested.

I'm selling at SGD$70 nett each.
(It's ok if you think it's too expensive. It's my own design, handmade + machine made and there are only these few pieces around.)

Sewn a couple of pieces too. Shall put up the pics when I have the time. =)

Adios!

KTV

2006-10-25T19:59:36Z

Supposed to meet up with ZhengPeng and his girlfriend, to sing. And then they cancelled on us at the very last minute.
Luckily DaNeNe and Lamlam were around and sporting enough to make the 'double date' happen. Heh.

My mood is so so so so so bad...

2006-10-12T14:34:15Z

that I burst into tears while eating egg-coated bread that my aunt taught me to make.

Big Day Today

2006-10-10T05:23:02Z

Today is a happy day.
Lots of BEAUTIFUL pictures to come.

Spread the joy, everyone!

A Little Reflection

2006-10-10T05:20:42Z

It had been weeks.
Somehow, it didn't feel quite right to blog.

I 'recovered' pretty soon after Ah Mah's funeral. Going out, having fun..I wanted to jot them down. But it just didn't look right to have those entries appearing right after the 'Mourning' entry.

It was kind of an irony that ALL 44 members of the family gathered only when someone passed away. I have this uncle, whom my sis had never seen for her entire life. He finally 'showed his face' after 16 long years, maybe more.
Amazing huh?

A few of younger generation, ie me, took the roles of the 'night-shifters' rather unanimous-ly. I slept for less than 20 hour for 5 days and then made it up with 30 hours of sleep after that. Wo hen li hai.

Ah Mah's passing, was not necessary a bad thing. May not be the nicest thing to think of but the truth is still the truth.
She had been bedridden for years, losing her memory, in pain, upset, etc. My aunt whose taking care of her is pregnant and baby's due next month.
是种解脱吧..对于祖母自身以及她周围的人.
The thought of this kept a lot of us going as well as to move on.

Despite of that, cremation day was, painful.
A typical Buddhist funeral ritual involves a lot of praying. The gist of it, I think, is to let the offspring express their last thanks and goodbyes to their parent/grandparent/great-grandparent. I don't really see the point of burning incense, 'crossing the bridge', throwing paper money in the air, etc. just blindly following out of respect.
And then, my aunts dropped the bomb.
They called out to Ah Mah, asking her to remember to look out for my deceased aunts and uncle when she 'descend' (into hell) and they'll look out and take care of her.
String of fucks erupted in my head and then memories of my aunt (and her funeral) came flooding.
I started tearing. Think my sis and cousin did too.

It felt kind of guilty in the sense that I wasn't exactly upset because Ah Mah passed away, but because I was reminded of the pain I went through 3 years ago...

Wanyi and I were discussing that day that we'll want to die before everyone we love does. Reasons being that we don't want to go through the pain of losing a loved one, again. Call us selfish lah, but really, no thank you.

3 years ago, I went through a phase which was so painful and heart wrenching, I don't know whether I've exactly recovered from it. According to Wanyi, it's like someone stuck a hand into your heart and squeeze it HARD. For me, maybe you'll like to multiply that by a couple of tens.

My aunt's passing was undeniably one of the most painful ordeals that I'll go through all my life. It's one of the fears I had, since young, which came true.
It definitely made me stronger though. Whenever something bad happens to me, I'll say, 'Hey, I went through that. This is nothing.'

When Ah Mah's coffin was pushed into the 'burner' (What's the term? It's there but it just won't come out. Urgh), sis and I burst into tears. Couple of my aunts and cousin broke down. They were closer to Ah Mah.

I took off my socks and 'xiao', turned, and saw Abbie. She saw me and gave me a smile.
I smiled back, tears yet to dry.

This is life I guess.

Mourning

2006-09-20T15:52:44Z

Grandma passed away.
Be back soon.
I'm ok.

bookofmusic @ 2006-09-16T02:41:00

2006-09-06T17:42:17Z

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Support Consonance, Five

2006-09-01T17:51:34Z

Performance Date & Time: 16 September 2006, 7:30 PM
Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Ticket Price: S$12, Free Seating

This is a 5th anniversary concert for Consonance to celebrate her 5 years of continuous music-making. It also highlights her first solo performance apart from numerous collaborations with other choirs & performances for organizations. Five commemorates pieces that have been reflective of past achievements as well as showcase pieces that hint at future advancements. This concert plays around with the number 5, with pieces sang in 5 different languages, such as English, Latin, Hungarian, French, and African, as well as 5 different genres of music. Consonance hopes to bring the joy of music-making to the people around her and endeavors constantly to accomplish higher standards with each concert.
(Courtesy of Wenquan's blog)

Consonance is Boyfriend's choir. They are working very hard to put up a good show..which also mean having lesser time for me. =(

Support ok?

Guys, it's a good opportunity to invite that girl out for a date. (Actually, girls also can lah..)
As for girls, it's an occasion to dress up! YAY!! Errm...of course that's secondary to me.
My main purpose is to show him my support. Hehe.. hehehe

Sidetrack:

During the secondary school days, I've attended countless concerts.
Don't you think it is super funny when at the end of a performance, everyone had to stand up and sing the school's anthem?
You can hear the jeers from it's school students, see the parents' helpless faces, and stupid people like me who, out of politeness, stand upright, but not know where to place my hands.

Do they still do it nowadays?

Of course it's a different thing for the performers on stage. I think for those few times in VCH and Jubilee Hall, those are the times when I actually sang "曰吾中正" all the way till "悠久无疆" loud and clear. Hor, Danainai, hor?

Anyway, SUPPORT OK!!
For ticketing enquiry, just drop me an email or leave a comment. =D

Oh ya..If you love me, show it by spreading the word, ok?
I love you too!

小女子在此谢谢大家的支持！！

我要吃chocolate!!!

2006-09-01T15:56:30Z

It's the time of the month again, and I need the magnesium.
The only cocoa supply I have at home, is the chocolate strips in that bottle of peanut butter.
Muahahahahahaha, don't blame me. Peanut butter and chocolate IS a match made in heaven. (Think KitKat with peanut butter...Woooo)

***

The other day, ZhengChang was going to have his sectionals at 7pm, while his school ends at 6pm.
So being the very nice girlfriend =), I offered to meet him and accompany him for dinner.

After some thought, he said,

"Darling,不然我们到楼梯间来点刺激的吧...?"
"Huh...我不要啦!被偷拍了怎么办?"
"没关系的,他们要拍就让他们拍咯..."
"我才不要!"
"不要这样嘛Darling, 我很想红leh.."
"..."

Book of Music = 书音

2006-08-28T17:15:22Z

Hellooooooo, Foxy Laaaaaaaadddddyyyyyyyyy

This is my new blog.
是不是很美?!?!

There are still things to be improved, like the my profile, my links, etc.
And I'm waiting for my guest writer to contribute...which I think will take a long long long long while..

It'll be in LiveJournal from now.
Till now, I'm pretty satisfied with what LJ offers, especially the level of privacy for its users.

I don't mind strangers reading about my stuff but not those stupid-sounding comments.
I don't need to know who you are, so I don't need to know how stupid you can sound either. Thank you very much.

I'm still pondering over the option of having entries lock up, giving access to the selected few (in LJ terms, these people are called 'Friends').
To be added as 'My Friend', you'll need to provide me with some information of you.
The easiest way, of course, is to be a LJ user, where I can also read your blog and know who you are.
If not, just leave a comment your blog address OR the email of your friendster/myspace/anything-along-the-line account and I'll settle the rest for you. =D
I just need to know WHO I'm adding.

It may sound pretty troublesome. To an extend, it is.
But it'll be worth it.
'Cos I know how it feels when you wanna snoop around but is being blocked out instead. =P
People who talk nonsense NEVER identify themselves.

We shall see how it goes..

I should be blogging more since my blog is so pwetty!

Ciao.

To-Do List

2006-08-24T20:47:29Z

1. Announce the change in blog/online journal location

Before I can accomplish this, I'll have to make some basic changes to the template.
Lazy...

2. Adapt to my BPPV

The polyclinic doctor said that to recover from BPPV, it's not about the healing of the balancing system. It is to actually WAIT for the brain to ADAPT to the vertigo.
Damn it.

Took leave from work until the end of this week. Considering my work requirements and environment, I'm not particularly secured about going to work in my condition.

For now, I'll only lose my focus and balance when my head moves up or down. So..in order to let my poor brain get used to whatever-it-has-to-get-used-to, I've decided to not be cautious about moving my head anymore. You gotta experience it more in order to make the necessary changes right?

In the first place, it was already difficult to take note and control of something that I am so used to and not even conscious that I am doing it.

Like yesterday, I got freaked out when I got giddy while going down the stairs. I HAVE TO WATCH WHERE I'M GOING, DON'T I?

The 'ADAPTATION' better not take too long.

3. Shop for his sandals

It's so difficult to find a pair that cater to his needs and that he really likes, because the choices are so limited!

We walked the whole of Orchard Road and there's only a handful of shops selling males' footwear, and the variety is like erm...pathetic.

Going to City Hall, Peninsula area tomorrow.

Any suggestions?

4. To observe print advertisements of watches (This one's kinda lame)

I bought identical watches for both of us recently.
While travelling up the escalator today, he said, "Hey, we must pose like we are advertising our watches."

Me:(=_=!!) Err..Ok lor.

*Raise arm across the chest and pose*

Me: Hey! If we pose like that, our watches will appear to be 'tom-balek'(upside down) in print ads, right? So, it means those watch models wear their watches the other way round la!

Him: Not very sure if the watches appeared upside-down or not.

Me: Okok, I shall remember to observe.

How many of you, like me, only thought of this today?

Better...

2006-08-20T17:19:15Z

Stayed at home again..
But I don't feel that miserable since quite a number of friends were online.

I'm taking leave from work tomorrow to visit the polyclinic.
The previous doctor had asked me to go back to him for referral if I still get the giddy spells after a week.
ZC did some reading up for me about BPPV and I've decided to seek a second opinion before going to the specialist. He said the kind of treatments I'll get is more or less the same. Well, since there's no cure, don't see the point to spend that much, yet.
Pray for me that I don't belong to the group which BPPV will take years to heal. GAH.
All the 'immobility' is going to make me one big fat lump of lard.

I'm getting the heavy feeling in my head again.
Sigh...

*cross fingers*

I am a sad case.

2006-08-19T19:27:38Z

I am S-T-U-C-K-E-D at home on a Saturday...
BECAUSE I HAVE BENIGN PAROXYSMAL POSITIONAL VERTIGO (BVVP).
I see the room go spin-a-spin-spinning whenever I move my head too much.
I cannot focus as well on anything like I always do.
I can't walk around at ease.
I can't do this, I can't do that.
Oh, and I have had this for ONE FREAKING WEEK.
No cause, no cure.
Maybe I should be happy that I didn't have a stroke which was the other possible illness that the doctor tested for.

Can't believe I started my new journal with an entry like that.
Can't believe I am getting annoyed over a simple thing like balancing.
Talk about taking things for granted.

Urgh.